Hold your breath. Are you ready? Are you sure you want to know? Okay, here goes. These are the confessions of my petty soul, things I am afraid to admit even to myself. Don't complain later that I didn't warn you.
I have never seen a Kurosawa film. I am haunted by both that fact as well as my fear of boredom.
I thought "Dev.D" was a failure, and Anurag Kashyap is hugely over-rated.
I think Shahrukh Khan is a great actor.
My alter ego is a mix of SRK in "Swades" and SRK in "Mohabbatein", with a liberal dash of Holden Caulfield.
I am beyond dreadful at managing my money.
I cannot stand the self-seriousness with which people underline their opinions when discussing cinema. Let me enlighten you, my friend- no one could care less how you feel yesterday's film could have been improved!
I believe, from the bottom of my heart, that- give or take a couple of people- everyone one I know is an idiot.
I have overpowering urges to slap people who believe themselves to be cinephiles, and happily distribute their opinions on what they believe is 'Cinema' without knowing anything about Scorsese, Guru Dutt or Buster Keaton. If you liked "Kites" and/or "Singh is King", I am talking to you.
I am a hopeless romantic, and proudly (albeit discreetly) possess a firm, unshakeable belief in love. I love both "Casablanca" and "When Harry Met Sally". I also love "Kuch Kuch Hota Hai".
I love watching all the mundane chick flicks with my girlfriend, because I love the way her face lights up when she laughs at a stupid joke.
I love shopping. Yup. I truly enjoy the high of holding my girlfriend's hand, walking around a mall, peering into windows, waiting outside trial rooms, nodding at her in approval, and handing over my cards to the tellers.
In line with all those who get money suddenly after a lifetime of poverty, I truly relish the rush the power of money brings to me.
I have huge pangs of insecurity when I read something written in such a fluid manner that I know I could never match it.
I have huge pangs of insecurity when I meet someone taller than me.
I have huge pangs of insecurity when I feel people won't get my weird, off-the-wall humour.
I truly wish more people understood my unfortunate neither-here-nor-there accent.
I am never too bothered by people richer, better looking or smarter than me. But bring me someone who has more films in his/her collection, and watch me panic!
I try very hard to pretend that I know what is going on in the world of sports- in truth, most of it comes from catching sports results on rediff.
I don't know how to hold a cricket bat. I invariably hold it like Aamir Khan did in "Lagaan"- that comes naturally to me.
I would rather have coffee with my girlfriend than beer with the guys.
I have never seen a single episode of "LOST", and don't feel that I have missed anything. I am proud to say that I feel no pressure to watch it, nor any feelings of being an outcast. I also don't feel any need to watch a show in order to be a part of a larger collective.
I don't feel tense or anxious at all for things -like money, careers and success- that give the rest of the world tension and anxiety attack; and that worries me. A little bit.
I am extremely paranoid that one day people will catch up to me and realise that everything I do, everything I say, everything about me is a facade- that I know nothing about directing plays, writing scripts, making films, or anything else for that matter, and my entire life is a process 0f very intricately masking that fact.
There. I said it.
3 comments:
@ Siddhant : Tell me something I don't know!
@ Everyone else who has dared to read this : You cannot even begin to comprehend how I put up with this insecure, narcissistic, obnoxious and sarcastic sweetheart of mine.
Ummm... I don't know her.
Lovely! You have inspired me to write my own list. Someday! :)
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